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We are not our scars

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I was thinking about posting a picture of my scarred knees but I thought, ‘goodness, no one really wants to see a picture of my knees!’
So you’ll have to trust me when I tell you my knees look ridiculous plastered with scars.

 

When I was a little girl I was riding my bike and i began to swing the handle bars back and forth. My siblings were riding along with some friends.  I wasn’t thinking, obviously because I flipped over when the handlebars turning back and forth tripped up my bike.  I had a huge gash on my forehead and my knees were banged up pretty bad.  I don’t remember how I got home but I do remember sitting on the bathroom toilet and my momma bandaging me up saying something to the effect of ‘oh my’.  After that my dad got us helmets, knee pads, and elbow pads.  See, I have great parents! They’re the best. :)

But those wounds healed eventually and although i managed to re-open the knee wounds all the time at the age of 23 they are now scars.  When I see them I think about the time playing basketball while rollerblading before awana. Where was my head!? I tripped of course and skinned my knee up.  These scars are reminders of where i’ve been.

I was riding in the car today on our way home from playgroup when a song came on the radio by Jonny Diaz called ‘scars’.

How awesome is that message!
I pretended to know the lyrics and sang along thanking God that I don’t have to hide emotional scars!
I thought about all the sins of my past, friends that hurt, a marriage that caused wounds, and I thought about how God tended to those wounds, bandaged me saying ‘oh my’ but loving me all the same.  They healed by the hand of God and now they’re scars that are reminders of where i’ve been but NOT who I am.

Praise God we don’t have to hide scars!

I don’t know where you find yourself today but trust God heals painful wounds and when all that remains is a scar know the truth that you aren’t those scars.  You are a new person in Christ, and His mercies are new everyday.

The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
(Lamentations 3:22-23 ESV)

Praying for you dear one!

~Laura~

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{Some Change}
Hurts.
One source describes change as the act or instance of making or becoming different.
 I have been seeking an answer from the Lord for over a year about how to deal with a certain (very important) part of my life.  I talked it over with family, and friends but claimed to not know what to do still.  Was I listening? Was I not facing reality? Or was I scared?
Well, I throw my hands up and tell you i’m not sure! 
But here is what i’m sure of..
I was sick about where I was, angry, annoyed, and plain old tired with a little bit of confused.
I was losing sight of my savior, marriage, the goodness in people, and the gifts God gave me.
But today as things unfolded in two separate conversations it appeared an answer finally came when i wasn’t even searching for it.
Although I joked with the Lord about his time table being way off, I realized he knew exactly what he was doing.
I’m going to walk away from a place that I care about.  That part is hard.  But with no bitterness or anger, just for the purpose of moving ahead to a place we fit better.   While God remained quiet I was given a chance to work through a few things making it acceptable to move forward now.
I could have never become different with this change if I was stuck in unresolved conflict.
He cares deeply and has a plan.
Some lessons we go through are plain old hard.
But tonight as I was given a glimpse into this new chapter  I couldn’t stop smiling because something in me was at home and I needed that more then ever! 
Tonight i’m going to bask in this peace that has come over me and thank God for it and his calling to move forward under his umbrella of authority.

 

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Remember that chair I bought? That I cleaned and was anxiously getting ready to tackle the slipcover project?  Well that chair stinks.  It smells awful and it’s been cleaned and cleaned with no hope of ever smelling better.
I’m debating what to do right now.
Pitch it out? Sell it? Take it apart and start over?
This $15 chair is turning out to be a little more then that. :)
Right now i’m leaning towards selling it and getting my money back.
Lesson learned.
In the future i’ll make sure to not just see the price but check it over first even if I look ridiculous smelling it up close!

I hope you’re having a great day and had a wonderful Easter!
I’ll make sure to post pictures soon :)
Thinking about you!