A while ago I talked about writing a book titled, ‘Significant’ and as of today not one word is found in the word document set aside for it. Notes were scribbled in the green notebook, and phone, and the tablet. It was hard to understand why but last fall I sensed the Holy Spirit pressing me to wait.
The vision for that book formed after I called out to God one day.
Do I really matter?
Its been a long time since asking that question, and some time after that God started unfolding an incredible answer.
He allowed some major pillars in my life, where I found security and significance, fall. That was really hard because I ended up sitting down in that mess feeling frustrated and angry with Him.
I took that question to many sources, only to find this heart still un-fulfilled and disappointed.
Until I took it to Christ.
What I believe is that almost everyone will wonder about the difference their life will make. There’s a lot of people who have been and will be, making us long for an even deeper meaning.
It will be exciting to start writing but for now God is still working this out in my heart.
I wanted to share a little update for anyone a little curious about what happened to that book I mentioned long ago.
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I wanted to share the picture above because when Darren saw me today he said I looked modern. : ) If you know me well, then you’re aware of my lack of style. I can’t figure out how to piece outfits together but today, on a day I’m not leaving the house, I match!
Yesterday Garrett and I sat on the kitchen floor and painted a space shuttle and astronaut. I love having those moments with him even though there was a power struggle over how to paint. 
We have entered year three and I’m already exhausted! Seriously, people warned me that two was nothing compared to three and now I get it.
I’ve accepted that each day I’ll be requesting more patience. One second he is whining for yogurt and the next he is pushing it away because the strawberry chunk has disgusted him. Lord help me!
Be firm, consistent, and patient is my new motto, preached often to myself.
As with any new stage there are also a number of sweet things ushered in.
My son told me today that I was pretty and then sang to me, ‘Do you want to build a snowman..okay, bye’. {From the movie Frozen} I love this child!
Hope you are having a peaceful day!
Until next time,
Laura
Thoughts from a mom who’s been there with 3yr olds: they do battle when there IS a battle to be done. Take away the battle — the battle is done. In other words, no negotiation, no battle. Time to put stuff away — time to do something else — time to go, etc. Your G-man is a pretty smart little guy. All you have to do is be just one step ahead of him, and pretend you’ve been there before. 😉
I like that you recognize that God put the brakes on your plan to write, until you were readied by Him to write. Kind of cool, huh? You’ll know when it’s time to put pen to paper (so to speak) and have it make sense. Maybe He wants you to be full-on “Mom” while the book simmers a while longer….or maybe he wants you to follow a different path with the book itself. There’s a book there, no doubt. It’ll come in its time.
In the meantime, you have a little guy who presents to you a wonderful blend of baby and boy. Enjoy that a while longer….and girl, get your rest! He’ll run you in circles pretty soon!
Gail
PS — you looked great in that pic!
This is my favorite comment.
You are so wise and I’m glad that you share with me. I needed to read that. Thank you Gail!